I was struck by love
It was as though I was hit by a glove
Woke up each morning feeling so fresh and loved
Lost sight of my past and now looking into my present
Folded and hidden is my future
So looking forward to what it has in store for me
I looked at myself in the mirror
All I could see were the scars made by the pains of yesterday
Hoping to find love in shady places
All I got was betrayal and hatred
I felt unwanted and unloved schemed to leave earth
Leave earth and find a place where I will be loved and appreciated
So many thoughts travel through my mind as I search for a path to take
I blamed myself for every situation that I came across But I told myself to count it all as loss as I’m awaiting something greater
I looked at myself in the mirror once again
All I could see were the people who hurt me
I cried at the thought of “my friend’s ”
I thought they cared
I thought they loved me
I mean why would they betray me
So many thoughts travel through my mind
Trying to shake them off but it’s worthless as they overcome me
The thought comes one more time and torments me
Confused I sit in my bed and tears just fall down my face
Is my life worth living anymore
Am I worthy of your love Pearl
As I reflect on my past
I see a trail of broken hearts and broken bottles
I feel she’s just a precious stone that needs all the care and attention
I sit on my bed and the same question rings in my head
Am I really worthy of her love??
By; Lebogang Manyala
